Since I’m really picking up and keeping up with the whole blogging thing, I have a deep desire to buy a DSLR camera. I know that will really help me take off with my blogging hobby and addiction. Here’s the catch though, I know nothing about DSLR cameras. I just know they take the most amazing photos. Does anyone have any advice for my new adventure and/or what I should get?
You’re sweet. I miss you.
The church we went to in DFW was very, very important in our lives. I really don’t think we would be where we are now if we had not spent those two years in that church. If you’re ever in the area, check it out.
This was one of my favorite studies ever, and I was there. If you’re interested in God’s view of sex and how the Word defines the importance of sex, then listen to this. I promise you won’t be disappointed. It’s a bit awkward at times, but mostly it’s refreshing with many, many funny moments.
I’m going to tell you the story about the Husband and I very early on.
We had been dating about 8 months when he up and dumped me. It broke my heart into about a million pieces, especially since he was still claiming he loved me. It was exactly two weeks before I was supposed to leave for college for my freshman year. That month was full of so many mixed up emotions. I just got dumped by the boy who told me he loved me on our first date (yes, this happened and I love telling people that - more on that time later). Then I was supposed to just pick up my life and move it two hours away.
We still spent those two weeks together, every waking moment together. No one knew we broke up because nothing outwardly had changed. It was the most confusing time of my life. Then when I went to college (he even helped move me into my dorm), I was shocked by how easy it was to move on, now that he wasn’t around. I still missed him constantly and would even cry some nights because I longed to be his girlfriend again.
Then things changed drastically for me. It was probably the third night when I met the new boy over a game of Apples to Apples. We quickly became inseparable at school. I told Now-Husband about the other boy. That was the most difficult phone call I had ever made. He was shocked and heartbroken like I had been. The day after the phone call, he actually drove the two hours up to my school to talk me out of it. I was furious that he had bombarded me (looking back it was the sweetest thing he could have done). I told him that I was moving on and there was no chance for us anymore. But I knew I didn’t care for the new boy like I did for my now-husband.
I went home labor day weekend, after being at school for about two weeks, and I didn’t even miss the new college boy. I didn’t even care that I was away from him; that was nothing like how I had felt always being away from Husband. Husband actually came over to my parent’s house while I was there for the weekend. It was such a tough reunion because I realized that he was the sweetest, most gentle soul in the world towards me. And I knew I would never find that again. But at the same time, I knew he had broken my heart. He said he wanted me back, but I said no. I said I needed to move on, and I was doing that the best way I could.
I knew the new college boy was just a mistake when I hugged Now-Husband that night before he left. I was overwhelmingly emotional because I anticipated that would be the last time I ever saw him. Those emotions did not go unnoticed and untouched by me. For days, I thought about that sadness. I went back to school the next day, but I contacted Husband that same day too. We spent the next few days secretly talking behind New College Boy’s back. NCB and I were never official because low and behold, he had a girlfriend at the same time. I guess my presence convinced him to break up with her because he did a few days after Labor Day weekend. The night he told me he was single and we could be official was the night I told him that I was giving Husband another chance and that I loved him too much to let go.
New College Boy was furious, and he had every right to be, but he had to know it was coming. I talked about Husband constantly, and I was even straightforward with NCB that I still very much loved Husband. NCB treated me like complete dirt the rest of my time at that college. I guess I don’t really blame him, but I gave him every apology I knew to give him. I was just doing what I knew to do at age 18 with my crazy, madly-in-love emotions.
I don’t regret that month apart at all. I look back on it now, and I’m just so overwhelming grateful to be where we are today and that I made the choice that I did. I’m not sure what I would do without this man in my life. I knew all along that it had to be this way.
I feel as if the depressing rants I had last night were irrational. I’m feeling better tonight. Still not looking forward to three nights a week of three hour classes. I suppose I will get used to it since that’s the next 2.5 years of my life. I will definitely be missing my husband.